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Sunday, November 20th, 2005
8:08 pm	today and always....i miss you all my friends!!!! Leaves beneath the sky so high thoughts meander alive pen in hand eyes glued to spiral lined notebook paper searching for answers in organic inventions could i stop breathing if i tried? (wither away and die) inhalation = suffocation a greek philosopher once said "death is an end to trouble" does this mean living is merely a cyclic pattern of obstacles similar to the eternal echoing of spirals in solar systems? sun....moon screw you I decided. I know nothing about PAIN P A I N even the sound it makes falling off my lips hurts. seasons change the dried leaves surrounding the circumference of me illustrates death's glorious victory As footsteps crunch by and unfamiliar faces scramble and disappear i finally find vigilant understanding that we all live and die ALONE this makes me feel humble again trouble =pain merely a temporary state a reality check a realization that we're not quite invincible. Current Mood: blah Current Music: the simpsons (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
2:32 pm	barcelona, madrid, paris!!!!!! spring break was the shit. Spain is a wonderful country. such a creative air to it. maybe i'm just a stoner artist chick but something about the people and the architecture just made me feel at home in a creative shell without any rationality. even the layout of the city lack any sense of rationality. fucking city crazy. i got lost so many times. i know what you're all thinking....well you always get lost rita. but actually over the course of this year i've been very good at finding my way. armed with my handy dandy map i could do anything! take over the world perhaps...... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
6:48 pm	12 mins til my printmaking critique.... i hate exams i hate tests i hate my little chest i hate litter i hate people who are bitter i hate the west i hate that we think we're "civilized" i hate that we're not i hate critiques and all that i hate bad music i hate being thought of as a floozy i hate men i hate being called a femme wish me luck! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 20th, 2005
7:50 pm	AMSTERDAM WAS INSANE! theres truly no place like amsterdam. a city that never stops tokin'. oh and how sweet it is! first thing i did when i got to amsterdam was order some northern lights off of a menu in a coffee shop. unbe-fuckin-lievable. i must say. i got so stoned i don't even know......anyways mostly me and my 9 friends did a lot of coffeeshop hopping. it was great. i check out some awesome pieces and bought mushrooms. i dind't take em b/c it was just too cold and unfamiliar. i didn't think i'd be comfortable in my skin there. i'm going to wait and do them in rome. they look really good though. i got "thai" ones whatever that means and liz got "philosopher stones". sounds pretty intense doesn't it. anyways amsterdam was everything one could expect. cool coffee shops with a large array of different kinds of bud. some served hash brownies and weed milkshakes. all very yummy snakes. Current Mood: tired Current Music: emptiness in my head (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
2:46 pm	amsterdam is only 3 days away!!!!! i can't wait to get so high i don't remember my name! fuck yeah. i heard the shit over there is better than anything you can find here or in the states for that matter. i can't wait to get high. i can't wait to smoke out my brain and remember what i didn't remember, but what you only remember when you're high b/c you did whatever you can't remember high so you have to be high to remember again......get it? LOL. i don't even get it so how could you? well i'm excited to say the least. valentine's day passed like it didn't really happen and i ate chocolate convinced i should since it was a celebration, and what's a better way to celebrate than chocolate. than i passed out to some italian speaking movie i didn't understand. my friend melissa came over for dinner. and judy gave us both a reading. quite entertaining. i'm not sure how true it was but she tries. so much work to do so little time to enjoy life. Current Mood: amused Current Music: david grey, white ladder (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
12:16 pm	things that make you wild and free, this is where i long to be. turns out stefano is alright. thank god! he's ok. i hope he calls me for valentine's day. don't know if we'll see each other b/c his car is completely totaled and the accident definitely complicates things. another valentine's day another single day. another day like all the other days. fuck valentine's day! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: madonna playing in my head (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
4:56 pm	not happy today. feel so far away. nothing i can do for you. stefano(my italian bf) didn't call me last night like he said he would. the plan was to go to zoo bar. he didn't answer my texts he didn't even bother to call and let me know we weren't going out together. whatever. this morning i messaged him saying i hated him...and why didn't you call? i was a bit pissed. about a half hour later i got a message from him saying that he was in the hospital and it sucks that i hate him and that he'd call me later b/c he couldn't talk right now. despite this i called...i called at least 6 times. i was worried. the night before, on friday night we went out. liz, his friend paolo, some of my friends, him and i went out. needless to say he was pretty hammered. he asked me if we could all spend the night at my place since i live in the center of rome closes to the club we went to. i said no, it would have been disrepectful of me to invite strangers to my place, judy wouldn't have approved. Plus the four of us would have made a lot of noise and at 5 o'clock in the morning when your 60 yeah old land lord is sleeping the in the next room you don't want an ugly situation to emerge. so he drove liz home and himself. i texted him did you get hhome alright the next day. no reply. later i texted him to see if we were going out. and when i had had enough i called him and no answer of course. i was more disappointed at this point than worried. my first reaction was he's ignoring my calls. which now that i think about it he never does. so you can imagine my reaction this morning. i felt really aweful about all of this. the last thing he said was "don't worry baby. i'm ok, i'm trying to take care of paolo right now. i'll call you later. kisses. oh god. i am worried. i wish he'd call. i hate when things like these venture into your life. drunk driving isn't cool. it's dangerous. and it sucks. i hope he's ok. he's a musician. what is he going to do about work, about driving? shit i feel bad. don't know how i can help. guess i'll just have to be supportive. he lives outside rome. what if i can't see him anymore b/c he doesn't have a car? fucking sucks..... Current Mood: distressed Current Music: radiohead (Comment on this)
Friday, February 11th, 2005
2:56 pm	i love gin and tonic! my new favorite drink is gin and tonic. don't get me wrong i love vodka. yeah it's definitely my all time favorite liquor but gin and tonic......no words can explain. yesterday was an interesting day. a long day to say the least. IF YOU'RE INTERESTED TO KNOW READ AHEAD: i've finally figured out my book idea from printmaking. my book is going to be made of fabric, i'm going to silkscreen all different pictures, some from online sources but most will be mine. most of the pictures will be of me. my theme is the creation of humankind. what do you think? i figure i'm in rome. i should pick a commonly used theme, one thats repeatedly utilized by the masters to explain the birth of the human race. i'm ganna make it sorta like a fairytale book. it's appearance that is and i want it to be graphic and funny. i have the first page layout. i'm also going to make a narrative text on each page in order to illuminate the fairytale book idea. and it will most likely be a feminists perspective on creation. mother nature will be a part of the story, as well as the creation of adam and eve. AREN'T YOU SORRY YOU READ AHEAD? (LOL) comments? Current Mood: dorky Current Music: the flamming lips (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
11:16 am	dinner and wine.... yummy. judy spoils me. soup and salad and cookies..... oh my! yesterday liz and i had dinner with judy. good stuff. quite a relaxing day in general. we smoked half way through classes and then i had to present an idea for my final critique which i'll tell you all about eventually. last night was also fat tuesday, the last night before carnivale. lent starts tonight. i guess it's ash wednesday for catholics. stefano my italian boy friend/boyfriend picked me and liz up and we went to this club called circus artista. inferring from the name i thought they'd play some decent music. but no. they started out playing shitty pop italian music and then they went on to play shitty pop american music with an occational placebo song which made thinks a bit more tolerant. stefano said they music would suck there but he wanted to go out for a few beers. liz and i got lost in the crowd as usual and danced a bit in an effort to make things more entertaining. for awhile it was fun but the crowd was so huge and people were basically on top of one another. it made me feel like i was in pergatory. fucking crazy ass italians. later we sat out by a fire and chatted. i hate money. my rents due on the 12th of february. i went to american express to withdraw money with little luck. they said the bill on the account was over due. my mom fixed the problem but now i have to go back there to day and hope it's all ok. when it comes to money it's business. you can't fuck with that. lately i've been missing classes. monday i missed sculpture but made up the class yesterday and today i missed photography. fucking slacker(is slacky a word?). i have to shape up! i need do some more artwork......but all i can think about is my next dinner and my next glass of wine.....peace y'll Current Mood: quixotic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 7th, 2005
11:33 am	the eagles lost ! gotta call this morning at 8am from a familiar voice...... "hey" cough, cough said the male voice on the other line. "hello?" i said "hey how's it going?" "hi kyle i'm sleeping...." "i thought you'd be" "did the eagles win?" i said anticipating his next sentence. "it was close". damn i thought. hours later i had been at the abbey theater watching the game with all my friends cheering for the eagles. drinking beer and watching american football felt so natural. it was almost exciting. half asleep the conversation drowsily went on. Kyle coughed a lot trying to get a word in in between coughs without much success. and i could barely make conversation let alone listen to what he had to say after only 4 hours of sleep. i'm glad he called. he promised to call me later when he got out of school. i hope he does. i told him, "i had faith he would." do i? i called kyle the saturday night asking him if all last semester was a waste? all of our long distant calls? the phone bill his parents bitched about but paid ? we spent many a night discuss our lives, what we wanted for ourselves, what we imaged life like in the future. friends what do you think? is it worth it? oh god. jesus loves you. and so does rita. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: beck (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
4:29 pm	hey all hi. hello. how are you? where are you? would you like some salt on that? want a pat on the back? how are you? would you like ice with that? how's it going? prefer a smack with that? how far gone are you? is it flat? how are you? goodbye. farwell. Current Mood: bored Current Music: feelin trip with pink floyd on the cd player. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
12:27 pm	busy business thank god i'm not the only stressing about school. scary teachers trying to intimidate the vulnerable. not right i tell you! not right i say again! side note: where's meghan been? anyways my classical greek and roman mythology is making me shit my pants. omar(my french man for those of you who don't remember me mentioning him) is coming on friday. which means i won't be able to do any work this weekend and i'll be stuck entertaining him......what a pity! lol. but really i have to get started on all this work before he comes otherwise it'll never get done. i pledge to not be a slacker this semester! who is with me???????? come on guys i know that sounds lame but we're fucking juniors. we're ganna be outta this shit hole soon enough and in the real world. freaky business but that's the way it goes, that's how the cookie crumbles. oh how i wish i had a chocolate cookie right now! I LOVE COOKIES! so philly got a massive amount of snow. i'm glad i missed that. here in rome it's beautiful and warm, but i am envious of carrie and sharon's sledding affairs. sounds like a good time to act like a child and get down and dirty in the snow. make sure you take some pictures y'all! I MISS YOU! sorry i haven't been keeping up with live journal entries. i've been insanely busy. anyways, be jealous i'm going to amsterdam in 3 weeks! ganna trip ganna smoke mad weed. can't wait!!!!!! sharon guess who i've been chillin with....? do you remember gay scott? he lived on south and 12 freshman year. we didn't see much of him last semester but he's here in rome and we've been chillin hardcore style. oh yeah baby he's sexy. why are gay men so fucking hot???????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Current Mood: awake Current Music: making conversation (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 17th, 2005
3:24 pm	hello all! wow how i miss you guys. i know that everyone is busy. i know i have been but i just wanted to dedicate a little time to writing to you guys and tell you how much i miss you all. i think about the nights we've share, the wonderful walks around the city. remember sophomore year. recounting the trips back and forth from kardon to 1300 makes me laugh. wow we NEVER EVER did our homework lol. but we had amazing times. today was the first day of school. looking around i realize i barely know anyone. new faces have took the place of the old. now i'm just one of the many that no body knows......mostly i've been hanging out with Liz. yes, i'll admit it. Liz the one who has been fucking garret for the last year. i must say my first impressions of her were not good. i didn't like her at all last year. she seemed self involved and egotistical, stupid and slutty. i could go on and on but after spending a few days with her we hit it off. i came to relieze she is a very nice person. she is a person obsessed with garret. if you didn't already know this now you do. sharon i'm sure you were aware. and taht's the only annoying thing about her. she could literarlly go on for hours about how hot he is and how she's going to visit him next semester while he's in rome. she could ramble on about sex and leading guys on but all in all she's cool. SHARON(i address you b/c i'm not sure if anyone else knows who she is) i know what you are thinking, but your wrong. she is cool. and i think i'm finally getting to know the real Liz. anyways, i booked my trip to amsterdam!!!! i can't wait. i'm going on the 18 of january. it's costing me $66 for a round trip. not bad. i can't wait to trip. and yeah. things are looking up. i met a boy the other night at Zoo Bar my favorite club. i completely ignored him while he danced with me and instead i continued to dance with liz and a few friends. then later we chatted outside over my clove and his cigarette. yes i have started smoking a little here and there. but that's besides the point. he dropped me off at my apartment which i need to tell you all about in a minute and then he gave me a little kiss. and it was nice. he asked me out the next day and i agreed. the next night i had a blast with him. we talked all about music and he played me a tape of his band. he is the singer and guitarist. it was pretty hot. he speaks pretty good english but is a bit too modest to admit it. i don't know what's going on between us but when we kissed sparks flew. i know i've said this before but he's different, he's sweet. he said he'd drive my bike over to the repair shop tomorrow. we'll see if he keeps his word and then i'll know if he's a man of his word or not. in the middle of our date omar my french boyfriend called. he's coming to visit me in two weeks. i told stefano, that's the new italian guy the truth about who i had been talking to. i told him we met a few months ago and we're seeing each other but it's a long distance relationship that isn't very serious. i think he was happy i told him the truth. i don't know but we had a terrific time despite the interruption. i'm staying in a room in an apartment located in the center of rome. i rented a room and i live with an older woman who owns the apartment. she's a sweetheart. she cooks me dinner and packs me lunch. this morning she made sure i was awake for my first day of school. she's almost like my aunt judy. she's from england and is an ex-ballerina. she's probably around 55-60 years old. the dancing has definitely jeopardized her body though. her joints stiffen at night. but we get along great. she read my tarot cards the other night and predicted that an older man would be entering my life. he would have money and would take me traveling with him. maybe this older man is stefano. he's 26. i'll have to wait and see. yesterday i called up mommy and had her give judy a reading judy loved it. the next day she was smile with relief. i think this is the beginning of a wonderful relationship. i miss you all so very much. eat some gummy bears for me! oh how i miss gummy bears and twizzler pull and peel. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: silence for once (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
12:22 pm	la la la la la snow has finally hit lanesville. i woke up this morning looking forward to a morning run until i gazed out the window. snow cascaded down from the sky and onto surrounding trees brought by the breeze. my winter-wonder-land had finally happened! if only this year had been a white christmas. every year i wish for a white christmas. call me sentimental. today feels like a snow day in grammar school. remember the thrill of a full day in the snow NO SCHOOL! yay. i'm happy it snowed before returned to rome. it doesn't snow in rome. it's too damn warm thank god. 59 degrees in rome right now. beautiful weather. i can't wait to go back!!!!!! I might visit philadelphia this weekend. that is if all my friends are around. MARC, CARRIE, SHELLY, MEGAN???????????????? should i come for one last visit? drama in ny has made be enthusiastic about leaving. i don't know if i can ever live at home again. obeying the rules of the house just isn't my thing. i want to make the rules. i want my own place to call home. i like waking up in the morning to an empty house, to that quite sound. anyways i'll miss you all. i love you guys. call me while i'm away. don't forget about your friend overseas. sharon what is your cell phone number ? Current Mood: grateful Current Music: murmer of the tv (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2004
4:29 pm	BE HOME TOMORROW! 1 day left y'all ! finally the day has come. at 4 o'clock a.m. i will be in a taxi on the way to the airport. my journey home has finally approached and i'm so excited. my sister and her gf will be welcoming me with a blizzunt at the airport. fuck ya! i haven't smoked weed in 3 months. well actually maybe 3 times in 3 months. otherwise purely hash and only on occasion.(rare occasions) i'm ready to sit back and puff puff puff pass yo. i just want to relax when i get home. heres my schedule: home- 130pm on sunday sunday-thursday i'm on long island friday-sunday i'm chillin in philly sunday-night my sister and i are going upstate after that i have no fucking clue. i have much unpacking to do before christmas. SHELLY, CARRIE AND SHARON you must come upstate for new years or we should go to nyc. i just wanna see you all i can ok? we'll work something out. i realized while being away why i'm friends with you guys and it's because you guys are the SHIT. seriously i love the way you love life, the way you cherish the simple things, embrace every part of each other, and especially accept each other for who they are. i miss you and i will never stop missing you while i'm in rome or home(upstate). i can't wait for this summer. when i have a place in philly and i'll be near all of you............. you're my heart. you're weaved into my sole like raisins in a cinnamon raisin bagel. oh how i love new york bagels. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: my head thumping from last night lol (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
2:31 pm	i'm coming to america! so hey all you boys and girls! how's it hanging? i'm chillin. looking for a place to stay for next semester. today karen and i saw this apartment near the vatican. it was absolutely beautiful. and i understood then why it was so expensive. it was huge! i'm so excited about next semester but i'm even more excited about seeing all my favorite at home. you know who you are. i love you so much! we needa s a b. serious just you and i. i like to call it quality time. lol. but anyways in the mean time i'll be getting drunk tonight waiting for tomorrow to come. i'm leaving italy at 4 am and arriving at the airport at 5 to get on a plane that takes off at 7. oh man it's going to be a hard couple of days with much needed sleep. i just hope i can pass the fuck out on the plane. fucking sucks that i have a lay over in zurich. damn it! it's cheaper this way though. packing and unpacking. seems like that's all i ever do anymore. feels like i don't have a home. i try to keep this montra in mind whenever i start feeling this way. ''home is where the heart is'' that's where it is.believing it is the difficult part. my heart exists in many places nowadays. in philly where my peeps are, upstate where my mommy and sister are, in rome my favorite city in the entire world. i called garret a few days ago to give him a heads up on my return. he said he'd be around. he gave me the old garret '' hit me up'' shit. we'll see if he pulls-a-garret or not. i'm hopeing not. you guys! i'm so excited to see you all. my loves. my babies. oh god i miss you! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: yayyayayyaayayayayyay (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
4:54 pm	3 days til i'm america 6 days til i'm in philly my home!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS! right now i'm searching for an apartment in rome. so far my friend karen and i have had little luck. As of now I'm HOMELESS!!!! AH. Current Mood: scared Current Music: FUCKADIEFUCKFUCK (Comment on this)
Friday, December 3rd, 2004
1:45 pm	with a little over a week left and fall semester over i'm fucking sycked! yeah boys and girls i'm coming to america! Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
8:08 pm	student art show yeah. i'm drunk and at the student art show. i have 3 photos and 2 prints hanging up. i got congratulated. pretty funny. for what? i ask myself. this is what i love. i didn't do it for this. i did my art work for myself. i love chatting with my professors. we're both drunk lol. it's great! I'M COMING HOME IN 11 DAYS Y'ALL! YAY! FUCKING CAN'T WAIT! i'm coming to philly all y'all philly cats on dec 16th so be around or i'll kick your asses. we're ganna chill and get funky yo. i miss u guys. tonight i'm going to a reggae show. should be a good time if it happens. Current Mood: amused Current Music: the la la la la la la la in my head (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 27th, 2004
8:57 pm	and the leaves that green turn to brown modern art.......fucking what the fuck! i went to a modern art museum today called Centre Pompidou. a lot of it was really cool but most of it i didn't understand. like what's the purpose of making a painting called "fuck painting" it looked like something out of a porno. i was like ok then.... and what's the point of putting layer upon layer of paint on a canvas just to make it pretty but all it is is ugly and a waste of paint, money and time. perhaps i'm being a little to harsh but i don't think artist now a days are being very conceptual. artist during the era of impressionism communicate a kind of slender simply in their application of color, they use their brush stroke, color combination, and imagery to pursuade the viewer into their world of make believe. they possess and awe the viewer. fuck modern art. Current Mood: happy Current Music: simon & garfunkel (1 Comment |Comment on this)